I don’t understand why guys can’t take no for an answer. It’s not that I am being be mean. Which according to him I was. I ask him about 20 times to stop before I went into freak out mode. Which for me is PTSD mode. Comes with the territory of being a survivor. I don’t get why men do not understand that rape is not just forcibly having sex with someone. If I say stop or no and are pushing you away it means fucking cut the shit. I don’t like being in PTSD mode for the next week after it happens. Especially that night because I can’t sleep well. If you care about a women you don’t disrespect her.